XV - THE DEVIL (synthesis)

from the deck of Luis Royo 'Dark Tarot'

XV - THE DEVIL

facilis descensi averni - the descent to underworld is easy.

The bearer of Death, illness, and misery, splatters human selfishness. The one who makes human slaves to thee fatal instincts. Shadows engulfed as Fear, obsessions, and negativity that leads to corrupted souls.

Core : broken morale compass, running amok, and wild ride 

Journal, Dec.6.2012

"As above, so below"
so the magus speaks,  personified, discernment life and death, be dexterous agile and witted like one of us. Shattering of certainty, the threshold - it should be done in order to resurrects the wither ones. Subdues, devours, genocides - thereby providing the raw material to reborn the existence that shall transcended all.
Fulfilled desires, conquered by memories of ancestral and current tides, a perfect puny and boredom civilizations - degenerates and apathetic.

"Convivialium disputationum"
God geometrizes continually, it arithmetizes, from "vesica piscis" ended on six day of creations, the workshop of Elohim - grace 

"Sedet aeternumque sedebit"
She sits and shall sit eternally.   

Ace of Chalices (20/11/2012, daily reads)

from the deck of Pagan Cats 'Felines'

Ace of Chalices.

A start of emotional matters - romance, relationships. Love and empathy towards others including compassion. Spiritually and emotionally connects with other peeps, being receptive. 

Subj : The Ace of Chalices invites to drink deeply and be fulfilled or better yet, just jump right in.

Core : An opportunity for an emotional experience or growth.

Celtic Cross Spread, Significator - Aries, Self read :p

from the deck of 'Espiral Mistica'
i also use the Tiger's eye orb to cleanse the cosmos field and synchronizing the deck with the personalities of the significator (Aries).

• Significator (Aries) - Knight of Wands
Enthusiastic, impulsive, restless. Having a 'hero complex' a win at all costs attitude. Someone who will over impulsively commit to something, then rush on to something else. Constantly being carried away by the passion of the moment.

1. Immediate Concerns - King of Wands
A leader, confidence of spirits, true decision maker, mature control over passions, creator, authority, willpower and passion-minded.

2. Obstacles - The Wheel
Unexpected changes (twist of faith and lifes), adaptation to changes, emotional Rollercoaster, random changes.

3. Crowned, what is known objectively - The Hanged Man
A change of perspectives, new point of view, spiritual revelations. Freedom and power of the mind, a caught between situations (positive and negative forces), a period of letting go and releasing karma.

4. Foundation, what is unknown about the situation, unseen - The Sun
Glory days, triumph era, pleasures and youthful energies, blessed times, happiness, a clarity that brings joy.

5. Past influences, fading away behind - Four of Pentacles
Financial stability, economic security, greed, possesiveness, miserliness, power hunger - lust for power, controlling and manipulating others, exploitation of influences and power, personal judgements, power gathering and domination.

6. Future, new circumstances ahead - Knave of Wands 
Spirits, enthusiasm of an initiate or new converts, entering into a new undertaking events with daring, being willing to take risks, and inspiring or encouraging message, a yearning for new adventure, re-discovered sense, re-experience something inspiring, re-learned the fuel of thy passion, renewed sense of power, and self determination.

7. Self, current state of mind - King of Chalices
Tactful and diplomatic, dignity, sincerity, a philosophical nature, holding and adhering to deep convictions, well control in realms of emotions and relationships.

8. Surrounding fields, circumstances surrounding the situation - Five of Pentacles
Loss, misfortune, loneliness, rejection, being left out in the cold, blind headed, problems and difficulties, physical needs, not seeing the opportunities or the helping hands (goes unnoticed).

9. Hope and Fear, both wanted and feared about - Five of Chalices
An emotional loss, defeat, unhappy ending to a relationship, failures, and losses (Fear).
Acceptance, big hearted (Hope).
-- Fear of the experience and feeling of defeats, loss, and grief situation - hoping to have a feeling of acceptance and open hearted.

10. What will come, Finale outcome - The Strength
The courage it takes to conquer your fears and to hold your chin up in the face of hardship. This kind of strength is not necessarily forceful, it can just as well be the voice of tolerance and calm.
'from this arcanum, emanates an inner force that allows the initiate to be the absoloute master of his passions and his energies, with prowess as your guide'

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Flurry Furs (19-11-12, daily spread)

from the deck of Pagan Cats 'Felines'

What does this little furred cute ones says on my daily spread ?

Knave of Pentacles.
an opportunity for prosperity, especially one that requires dilligence, persistence, and hard work. Down to earth and practical, a sense of awe and wonder about the world (curiousity kills the cat :p). Desire, yearning, and aspiration for affluence.

Subj : Someone who is learning something about the physical world, resources, or finances.
Core : One who is assessing something in the area of physical world, resources, or finances.

well.....

Love Readings (13-20 Nov 2012) cc : Querent, you

CC : Querent, Regarding Love situation

1. Backgrounds - Four of Swords
Respite from troubles that indulgings love, Recuperation, Contemplation, Hiding your head in the sand, refuses to act for love after cetain experiences and withdrawal. mentally and emotionally exhausted

2. Present Issues/Conditions - Queen of Swords
Bareness and separation from love, Detachments from passion and thoughts, self reliance, emotionally barren, clinging to the rules of what is right and wrong without tempering judgement.

3. Incoming problems to deal with - Knight of Pentacles
Lust for material gains, security, and commitments - Financial matters that may synchronizing with point 1 and point 2

4. Conditions of Love/Effects that will pampered - Justice
Fairness, the consequences of your actions are at hand, balance are on thy move, reaping what you've sown for good or ill ones - a time of karmic accounting

5. Advices at its best - Seven of Wands
Act defensively, realize and consider your capacity to face serious threats, stand your ground, Accepts what it may come with grace and courage, be well prepared



Best of Luck,
Erlangga Patria

Getting to know each other, hey there 'Felines'

well, here it goes.. just being gifted with a new set of deck 'Felines' :s just look at them, so adorable.. whatever, lets get things started. As usual after the first meeting, what you should do of course 'get to know each other' session. To know the potentials ? 

yeah.. lets break it down then. :)

1. Characteristics, tell me about yourself.. 

what is your most important characteristic : Six of Swords

Receiving help to leave undesirable situations/issues, Perspectives, Refreshed mind, Healthy and clear insights through dilemmatic problems

2. Strength, what are your strength as a deck : Three of Swords

Learning and understanding of something that causes sorrow, Problem solver, Intelligence, Integrity and intellects that could wither emotional problems and issues.

3. Limits, what are your limits as a deck : Five of Wands

Experimenting on problems/issues, pushy or stressful situations that results on experimenting ideas, Prototype formulas, Hasty and annoyed situations that imbued with competing egos

4. Teachings, what do you bring to the table - 

what are you here to teach me : Ace of Pentacles

Prosperity, Blessings, an openings and opportunities

5. Best Linked Time, how can i best learn from, 

and collaborate with you : Strength

High energies, Spirited, Powerful, Determination

6. Potential Outcome, what is the potential outcome of -  

our working relationship : Judgement

Renewal, Reborn, Revelations, Ascension 

well.. 

miaw~ then 'Felines' :3

CC : Readings for 'anonymous' (yes, you)

(From Left to Right)

1. Backgrounders/Situations
four of pentacles; Financial stability issues, security regarding money affects greed and possesiveness towards the situation that may include 'some person' withins (lovers, ex, crushes, whatever)

2. Problems/Issues
The Chariot; difficult matters, the road is rough, progress through hearts and minds are really difficults. Lacks of Concentration, Willpower, and Determination for resolving conflicts (deciding) within yourself and finding the necessary balance to settle the issues. you are halted and stuck at this moment.

3. Advice
eight of chalices; sacrifice (ego, persons, conditions) for finding a new directions in life. the card suggests you to take a risk for the journey into the unknown (new), leaving behind old attachments towards the new unexplored realms. search for its best.




Best of Luck,
Erlangga Patria

ORDEAL

Judgement, to each his own.
a test, the sound of the spiral horn announces that a cycle has ended and everything will be renewed, revived, reraised. The rainbow over the ruins is the symbol of enlightenment and of useful revelations for a new pact. 

As the Fool leaves the garden of the Sun, he feels that he is near the end of his journey, ready to take a final step. But something is keeping him from doing this, holding him back. He gazes up, hoping to find guidance from the Sun; instead he sees above him a fiery angel, beautiful and terrible.

"You are right," the Angelic figure confirms, "you have only one last step on your journey, one final step to completion. But you cannot take that step until you lay your past to rest." The Fool is perturbed. "Lay it to rest? I thought I'd left it behind, all of it," he says. "There is no way to do that," The Angel observes. "Each step wears down the shoe just a bit, and so shapes the next step you take, and the next and the next. Your past is always under your feet. You cannot hide from it, run from it, or rid yourself of it. But you can call it up, and come to terms with it. Are you willing to do that?"

The Angel hands the Fool a small trumpet. The Fool is hesitant, but he knows that this is a final decision. Either to go forward, or stay where he is. He blows, and the trumpet's song echoes across the sky, its vibrations seeming to crack open the Earth. From under the Fool's feet, memories rise. Images of his innocent youth, challenges, loves, failures, losses, success, disillusionment and wisdom.

For the first time, he does not try to leave them, ignore or forget them, but accepts them. They are, he sees, nothing to fear. They happened, but they are gone now. He, alone, carries them into the present. With that understanding, the memories vanish. Though they remain in his mind, they no longer have any power over him. He is free of them, reborn, and wholly in the present.

as of this morning the card opens. it means Ascension for me. 

define

Deep conversation happens today, solidify and ressurects.
Fire, Ash, Raise, Reborn.

Ive decided :

God
Family
Empire
Dreams

Pride and Glory to longevity.

missing link.

skeptical but even a little one could feel it. the link, missing - forgotten - dumped, perished.
no need to trust, just dont tell, keep hiding it. nor shared.

solidified it in mind. a perfect place wherein peace resides. deep, thee shall not know. never

sleep away, dear..

dear trauma, now is the time you shall leave.
wither and rest in peace.
become memories in red, i shall treasure.

locked.

another fight..

i was born to fight, blood pays blood.
content.

waving.

faraway place in the past. 

we laugh, cry, play, shared dreams and love.

strangers now. 

passing by in real time. 

i should forgot, if it must.

passing by my sweet times.

waved hands..

Petrushka

for you.

tragic, distorted as it said in cover.
what i see; pulchritudinous
dissonant, unstable is what i feel.
harsh and unpleasant perhaps, as the title goes.

toneless and empty.
ephemeral, transitory.
what i love the most - similarity

from noon till dawn..

ive lost 'love'
ive lost 'pride'
ive lost 'comrade'
ive lost 'territory'
ive lost 'money'

still have brains
still have hands
still have legs
still have health

claim once, down once, reclaim..
dont moan, noble shall not

dearly, sad and beautiful 'world'

solitary

a perfect picture of barren souls. pure beauty, nuff

anata

Unable to sleep, I look up at the window's moon...
If I think about that day
On the stairway to the sky, I walked each step one by one
There is nothing, no matter how far I've looked, that I'm certain of
But in joyful times and bad times, you were by my side


Onto the ship without a map floating to the darkness
To tomorrow continuing to shine just like that star


In my heart from someday on it will shine
Because you are here
Even until all of my tears dry, so precious
Because you are here


Even if a stormy night is expected,
Even if the sun collapses, it doesn't matter


Even if impatience is in the way and I can't really speak well
Even if there is no end I keep on walking


In my heart from someday on it will shine
Because you are here
Even until all of my tears dry, so precious
Because you are here


To your heart
To your heart
To your heart I need your love and care




*Poured by tears of rain and calm breeze
one of the best moment of my life
#L'arc~en~Ciel Live on Jakarta (May 2nd 2012)

מלך

dear Elohim, through the order of Genesis creation, herewith i request DNA of some existence that we usually call as a 'guardian' 'task giver' 'lord-ruler' a 'KING'

a 'king' that have high intelligence and common senses
a 'king' that have high value of justice and fairness
a 'king' that have high morale, leadership, kindness and ethics
a 'king' that have fair adjustment in power, influence, heart, and charisma

a 'king' that are equal brothers to all humanity and universe
a 'king' that carries vision to liberate and stabilize the sytems of life

down with all sickness, please allow me to make peace with the 'king' humane and personal sin such as : lust, envy, greed, and cowardice.
through blurred vision and tricky situation please allow me to rediscover the truth of stream and roots within the 'king'.
through the channeling and barriers of other lifeforms please allow me to break and keep the 'king' to be always safe and healthy.
through encounter and clashing situation with the corrupted ones please allow me to face them and bring glorious situation for the 'king'.

here is a constant reminder, we create.

fin

favor of the wind, and im all stirred up,

Goodluck my way to the path that i always believe.

there will be no regret nor fear and hatred,

almost overtaken.

*burp

at the same time i feel blessed and cursed..
living as humanbeing is really hard..
feels like synchronizing with emptiness, blackhole, nil..

act IV Loveless CC.

My Soul corrupted by vengeance,
Hath endures torment,
To find the end of the journey in my own salvation.
And Your eternal slumber.


Now what i want most...
is the 'Gift of the Goddess'...


-loveless