define

Deep conversation happens today, solidify and ressurects.
Fire, Ash, Raise, Reborn.

Ive decided :

God
Family
Empire
Dreams

Pride and Glory to longevity.

missing link.

skeptical but even a little one could feel it. the link, missing - forgotten - dumped, perished.
no need to trust, just dont tell, keep hiding it. nor shared.

solidified it in mind. a perfect place wherein peace resides. deep, thee shall not know. never

sleep away, dear..

dear trauma, now is the time you shall leave.
wither and rest in peace.
become memories in red, i shall treasure.

locked.

another fight..

i was born to fight, blood pays blood.
content.

waving.

faraway place in the past. 

we laugh, cry, play, shared dreams and love.

strangers now. 

passing by in real time. 

i should forgot, if it must.

passing by my sweet times.

waved hands..

Petrushka

for you.

tragic, distorted as it said in cover.
what i see; pulchritudinous
dissonant, unstable is what i feel.
harsh and unpleasant perhaps, as the title goes.

toneless and empty.
ephemeral, transitory.
what i love the most - similarity

from noon till dawn..

ive lost 'love'
ive lost 'pride'
ive lost 'comrade'
ive lost 'territory'
ive lost 'money'

still have brains
still have hands
still have legs
still have health

claim once, down once, reclaim..
dont moan, noble shall not

dearly, sad and beautiful 'world'

solitary

a perfect picture of barren souls. pure beauty, nuff

anata

Unable to sleep, I look up at the window's moon...
If I think about that day
On the stairway to the sky, I walked each step one by one
There is nothing, no matter how far I've looked, that I'm certain of
But in joyful times and bad times, you were by my side


Onto the ship without a map floating to the darkness
To tomorrow continuing to shine just like that star


In my heart from someday on it will shine
Because you are here
Even until all of my tears dry, so precious
Because you are here


Even if a stormy night is expected,
Even if the sun collapses, it doesn't matter


Even if impatience is in the way and I can't really speak well
Even if there is no end I keep on walking


In my heart from someday on it will shine
Because you are here
Even until all of my tears dry, so precious
Because you are here


To your heart
To your heart
To your heart I need your love and care




*Poured by tears of rain and calm breeze
one of the best moment of my life
#L'arc~en~Ciel Live on Jakarta (May 2nd 2012)

מלך

dear Elohim, through the order of Genesis creation, herewith i request DNA of some existence that we usually call as a 'guardian' 'task giver' 'lord-ruler' a 'KING'

a 'king' that have high intelligence and common senses
a 'king' that have high value of justice and fairness
a 'king' that have high morale, leadership, kindness and ethics
a 'king' that have fair adjustment in power, influence, heart, and charisma

a 'king' that are equal brothers to all humanity and universe
a 'king' that carries vision to liberate and stabilize the sytems of life

down with all sickness, please allow me to make peace with the 'king' humane and personal sin such as : lust, envy, greed, and cowardice.
through blurred vision and tricky situation please allow me to rediscover the truth of stream and roots within the 'king'.
through the channeling and barriers of other lifeforms please allow me to break and keep the 'king' to be always safe and healthy.
through encounter and clashing situation with the corrupted ones please allow me to face them and bring glorious situation for the 'king'.

here is a constant reminder, we create.

fin

favor of the wind, and im all stirred up,

Goodluck my way to the path that i always believe.

there will be no regret nor fear and hatred,

almost overtaken.

*burp

at the same time i feel blessed and cursed..
living as humanbeing is really hard..
feels like synchronizing with emptiness, blackhole, nil..

act IV Loveless CC.

My Soul corrupted by vengeance,
Hath endures torment,
To find the end of the journey in my own salvation.
And Your eternal slumber.


Now what i want most...
is the 'Gift of the Goddess'...


-loveless